Morning Airs – Lyrics

Morning Airs | lyrics

I Am Not Well 

I have known looks shared far too long without love
Then I can't imagine looking at you without love
And I know it's not just the two of us
When it crashes down, it does, I am so deeply cut

I have felt shame I’ve passed off the blame to you
And I have known doubt, keep pushing it down and not out
And you know, I never fail to pout
I’ve just held out my hand like a childlike man

Forgive me, for I am not well
This has been my first personal hell
Bring me, these tongues are warm, and my love is torn

I have known hate
Consuming and changing but it does not last
I hope the next time it comes around I remember it faster
I don’t wanna know, two kinds of truth
And from one of those worlds, I return to loving you

Forgive me, for I am not well
This has been my first personal hell
Bring me these tongues are warm and my love is torn...

Apart
Let’s see through this rotten old heart
Force me to evolve, and I will prove me wrong

Building no one but myself
I am disposing of what I could not sell
The seeds of my heart and soul, they will regrow

Forgive me, for I am not well
I have been working so hard can't you tell
Bring me these tongues are warm and my love is torn...
My love is torn
My love...


Portrait of a Moment (I'm Relaxed) 

Chorus:

Fay’s in the water just splashing around
I’m where it’s dry just finishing a round
Though my eyes may be stinging, my ears are not ringing
And all I hear is the sound

Of weed wackers by the ocean floor and
Kids with the notion they’re deep-sea exploring
And whose mood would not be changed in this way
Holy shit, I’m relaxed I would say
Holy shit, I’m relaxed I would say

Dads have been dying first time in our lives
We have been crying til our eyes run dry
Though my chest now feels empty and you are not with me
I know we will be alright

Cause everything changes, it’s the one thing we know
But though we all die we don’t choose when to go
But I chose to take you down this road
And I hope that’s the one thing I control
Yes I hope that's one thing I control

But now I know I don't control anything
You are not who you are to me
I hope one day you'll see
All I do in you, all I know to be true

If it ever floods in that city that we love
Grab a bottle of Rosé, two mugs and climb up
To the roof where we’ll admire, the water growing higher
And be happy we live by the sea
Be happy we now live by the beach

Well I don’t particularly have anything to say
I’m just meditating on where we are on this happy day
And happiness is a moment in time
So much more, than knowing that you’re mine
It's so much more than knowing that you're mine

So stay in the water just soak up the sun
I’ll live in this memory for years to come


Falling Out of Love 

And I'm half asleep
I should not be deciding things
But if you knew, would you be relieved with the truth?
I'm falling out of love with you

And I'm not fulfilled
Oh, and I've had my fill
Of the routine heartbreaking
And that desperate making up
I'm falling out of love with you

And you know what I need
I've communicated it so clearly
Won't you be, please, what I'm asking
Cause I'm falling out of love with you

... but I'm half asleep


That's OK 

I’m feeling sad, that's OK
Maybe it’s not reactionary
I’m feeling crushed that's not OK
Well, some of that's reactionary

How do I know if I’m wrong
When this feeling just does not belong
How do I know if I’m wrong for you
When I know I don't belong to you

I’m too alone to be OK
I’m shutting out the world with headphones in a harmful way
And some partners have skipped town
I need to be kept in line when they’re not around

I want to pick up my guitar and make it scream
I want to channel all these feelings into something that means something to me

I wanna laugh I wanna cry
I wanna live I wanna die
I wanna skip to the part where we remember this time
With love in our hearts, success in our eyes

But I’m not there yet, I guess that’s fine
I’m not in a place where I can’t personalize
And make love in to animosity
And turn it all into something I don’t recognize

I want to pick up my guitar and make it scream
I want to channel all these feelings into something that means something to me


Final Loving Lyrics

Four years on, I’m still in love with you
Not just the beauty but all your values too
You would laugh, you would laugh, if I called you my muse
Do you hear me from that side of the room? In this apartment in London
Where my heart went crazy for you
So long ago, it’s hard to believe right now
As you and I have drifted, somehow

So, this is my attempt at a good love song for you right now
So remember being 17 and melting for my eyebrows
Think about the hands that softened you in the morning light
I’m 96 degrees and I’ll always hold you tight

Do you think about my chin
Or remember the taste of my lips on yours
Or skin relenting under my finger tips, eager but unsure

I want nothing more, than to live for romance
To open up a letter commanding me to hold your hand
To be satisfied with a knowing touch or glance in silence, always in silence
To wake me up before you and gently kiss your eyelids

I don’t know what I thought would happen back then
I’m angry now, but glad that this is where my life went
We are now at my life and song’s transition
So maybe just listen, to the love I will be missing

Like the Jacksonville beach in morning
The basement in Boston where we laid mourning
Pouring contact solution on my shirt
Trying to make you laugh til it hurts

Deciding together when to sleep
And when to stay up, just talking
To breathe your hair like oxygen
Studeer Nederlands voor mijn vriendin

And sleeping naked without sex
To know you keep your promises
To laugh about my married ex
To disagree on what the recipe says

To make popcorn and share unfairly
To dream but not speak of being married
That little twin mattress in the DC living room
Getting on a plane saying see you soon

And riding bikes with freezing hands
Hold my shoulder, I’m a peddling man
To know your parents, and you my Gran
To share our days like two best friends

To open up like flower buds
Protect each other like troops in mud
Drinking rosé out of coffee mugs
Get up early, see the sun come up

To wrestle for real on the bedroom floor
To follow you around in the grocery store
I’ll book flights and we travel the world
To me you’ll always be the girl

Who changed my life in so many ways
Who helped me be the man I am today
Who set the bar high and pushed it higher
Who’s moral compass knew no bounds
And never really was a liar

All this is is to say that you are my muse, I've studied you and you me too
The love of my life. If what you need is to lose me
Then let it be, be happy
Let it be, I want your happiness

But like us all, I’m so flawed
Yes I knew myself through you
But you never saw my logic,
It was never "all I want is you"
But "I want all for you"


 

Please, Don't Breathe Down My Neck 

You have been writing me on the back of your page
Please don’t breathe down my neck
You say understand me but you can’t feel my pain
Please don’t breathe down my neck

Well the only thing
To know about me
I want to give and be received

Take your elbows off the table and your head out your hands
This can be overcome too
Maybe your young and dumb you're not thinking far ahead
That can be overcome too

Whoa, when you’re up at night in the harsh moonlight with skin so nearby
Take pride in what is right
When the day’s gone long and all’s gone wrong and help is unwanted
Take pride in what is right

But you’re all caught up
In what you think you want
You’re gonna lose the ones that you love
And now you lost the one that you love

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa...

What I hate to discover about my loved other I don’t want it to be true
I love but I don’t like you
You wouldn't rearrange or let plans change like I'd do for you
I love but I don’t like you

(Saxophone Solo)

You have been writing me on the back of your page
Please don’t breathe down my neck
You say understand me but you can’t feel my pain
Please don’t breathe down my neck
Please don’t breathe down my neck
Please don’t breathe down my neck


John's Apartment

I wanna be in John’s apartment
Where the black stairs lead
To a corner with a window and a seat
Where I can read "Because of Winn Dixie" in peace

And my only worry would be
What we would eat
Because my food would be prepared by my parents’ college friends
And I would be, part of something so much older than me

I wanna be in John’s apartment
Where the black stairs lead
To a window in a corner
Where I can read Because of Winn Dixie in Peace

Let’s go to Chicago
And visit the Sears
And attend a graduation from a grown-up program I don’t understand
And let me know nothing, God pleaes let me know nothing again, I wanna be...

(Piano Solo)

And I wanna be smaller than you
I want to sit on your shoulders
Let’s take a trip just the two of us, however short
To the Windy City, and let me know nothing again

I wanna be...
Where the black stairs lead
To a corner with a window and a seat
Where I can read "Because of Winn Dixie" in peace

And let me know nothing
God let me know nothing again
God, let me know nothing
Let me know nothing


The Love of a Woman 

I want to give love to the girl next door
Not gonna settle on that love like before
I want to hold her in my heart
As we both get new starts
I guess I want to talk

I want to sleep with my old best friend
Split up by pillows just like when we were kids
And confess things quiltside
I don’t get nervous in those eyes
But he forgot our conversation, he was high

I've got love for the girlfriend not mine
She’s got Norah Jones records and Christmas lights inside
And she’s falling back in love
And making sure I get up
She is the woman I love, she is the woman I love

I jumped ship but still have to get to shore
That beautiful human was rowing no more
God get me to the sand
That I might never sail again
I want the love of a woman devoted to this man

I've got love for the girlfriend not mine
She’s got Norah Jones records and Christmas lights inside
And she’s falling back in love
And making sure I get up
She is the woman I love, she is the woman I love

God get me to the sand
That I might never sail again
I want the love of a woman devoted to this man

God get me to the sand
That I might never sail again
I want the love of a woman devoted to this man
I want the love of a woman devoted to this man
I want the love of a woman devoted to this man


It Mattered to You

You get me wrong, it’s not that I’m not having fun
It’s just that I have had enough
Of burning my throat and scorching my lungs
And trying to live how the movies say to be young

You gave up so much to be surrounded by strangers for that
Pulsing club beat and the alcoholic dangers
Those others are just kids, talking bad behind our backs
Acting like friends when they take another drag

But who's there in the morning
Preparin’ supper at night
Fighting for the victories and sharing in your strife
My phone is always by my hand
I wanna give another chance
I guess I'm boring now but this is how I’m a man
I guess I' boring now but this is how I'm a man

Here I was thinking we’d avoid some of this
I already passed my phase of going out and getting pissed
I never knew a higher purpose than to give myself to you
But you know I never heard you say that too

[CHORUS]

If it mattered to you, whoa it mattered to me
But that only works if we both say the same thing
I put your needs ahead of mine, but that’s when you agreed
This cannot work if we both do the same thing
No this cannot work if we both do the same thing

So take your present, sacrifice our future
As grown as I am I’m sittin’ here smelling your t-shirt
Keep the late nights and all that shallow stuff
Cold comfort are beliefs I won’t give up

Cold comfort are beliefs I won’t give up
Cold comfort are beliefs... I won’t give up